3 Month Siege and More Zucchini Please

This project was begum three months ago... That means my husband has been sick for four months, and foe over three months I have been attempting to rest and give my digestion a rest. You'd have thought it would have worked for me and the same time we were both on the most restricted diet, but i failed. The stress was too much. I caved over and over...gained and lost...I don't even remember how much...I think I am still down ten form the worst of the weight...but I have three on now that are going to take a long time to get back off. It is illusion, because my muscles have turned back to fat,and I am so weak. Before the scales tip in my favor, they will go up and i beat my body back into the salad wager and out of the insulin roller coaster it has been on. Yes...I will be plodding along in a a slow wagon...in every area of my life...Dr orders were for rest...Id have tarted that 6 weeks ago, but the stress got to us all...causing such detonations...but as with God, this were used to tear at bad relational foundations...so all this pains ... i think in the long term, was worth it. That said. Today's breakfast was a pattie of homemade sausage and a diced sauteed zucchini...if i fell like bailing, it will be protein, fiber, and gelatin shake--perhaps with banana and crushed ice. if i do not fell like death warmed over still at the end of the week,I will be surprised and count myself very blessed. All I want is to plod along at about my house work...not quit...sleep 8-10 hours a night---assisted and even if interrupted...keep my face pressed into the heart of God, and eventually fell well about t0o work-out in such a way that builds muscle again...and walk for an hour a day...only goal...