Tonight I got out the plastic bin of poultry from market yesterday. The nice vendor is always water-boarded by my order. this week she forgot the boneless skinless chicken thighs i had planned for tonight's supper. My only option was the cubed (as in stabbed a million tines and flattened )boneless skinless chicken breasts. I popped the sweet potatoes, er yams into the oven, and was planning on pan searing the meat later, while the broccoli steamed. Seth asked what was for supper, and looked non-plussed about what i often sarcastically call slabs of chicken. Now, before I move on, when i am really stressed, i have expressed a desire not to have to give dinner a proper name each night. Seeing as we have vegetables, a carbohydrate and a green vege every night I have been known to answer very flatly something like festering Road-kill." he also knows better than to truly complain, so this small exchange was affable.
So, after his aw not again face, I thought that i might roll them up and bale them instead. I have put all natural ham and rice cheese on for cordon blue, and could have done some greens like spinach...but I was in the mood for mustard. Prepared mustards are off the table right now, due to the naturally occurring sulfites in the vinegar. I liberally sprinkled both sides of the slabs with mustard powder, and sprinkled sage and herbs on the one side to be rolled to make a green spiral...then I sprinkled salt and white pepper on top, brushed it with oil and it is went. Right now all we can have is coconut oil. Even olive oil is off the table, so the pan and tops were smeared with extra virgin coconut oil---which looks like crisco.
Tonight's table was most lovely color, Bright and dark green of broccoli jsut the right texture, Baked yams with coconut oil---tastes like pie! And delectable spicy chicken rolls...with soem of the pan liquor drizzled on...Mmmm
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
My Recent Brush with Satiety + My Fitness Background
5 days of having no grains (save my rice protein powder shake and at time enough vanilla rice milk to take the edge off)I discovered that i still fell no sensation of a full stomach, or satiety...and it seemed like my digestion was slowing to a grinding halt---like no peristaltic action. In a desperate move, i put fiber into my shake,and that helped not only with adding more structure and filler to all the vege fiber, it caused me to fell something new--satiated. I feel satiated for hours! it is wonderful. I do not feel hungry!
When I am on grains, I am immediately addicted. The addiction is inebriating, it takes the edge off all my emotions..and I thought i simply had self control. My ability to feel my emotions and physical pain has been heightened. I have developed an appreciation for these, and the desire never to be controlled by them, so to me it is like getting a useful tool back. it is not disappointing or frightening. I am observing my feelings. Emotions,in proper perspective, are helpful for understanding and communicating, and even some decision making.
Satiety helps one to feel settled. I know that I was getting to a strange place where I was losing my appetite altogether...and just like I was fading from life. Feeling fullness, and satiated seems to make foe better rhythm and tempo to each day. Though lack of sleep still causes me mild carb cravings. Today I have post-exertional exhaustion form singing, and lack of sleep, but I suspect the post exertional days will pass with less carb cravings, and i fell hope that post-exertional exhaustion days might someday fade out of my memory...
For fiber, I am taking medi-bulk, in my mediclear anti-inflammatory shake. I have at times added knox gelatin, though i am sure that agar-agar flakes are better and cleaner, as they are not form bovine. Perhaps I can find gelatin powder form a source where the bovines are grass-fed and not treated with hormones and chemicals etc... Today, a lady at the gym who manages type 2 diabetes strictly with diet and no meds, told me she takes a tablespoon of chia seeds with meals, and they gel up on her stomach with the food. I can see that, we have soaked chia seeds and spread them on the terra-cotta forms for fun here. I always wondered why they were sold at the health food store! The I thought of ground flax for my shakes too!
Then i got to thinking about flax...and that maybe, just maybe next month i can have some small pancakes made of a mixture of ground flax and teff, just some very small ones...but truthfully, I think I would rather stay in this safe place for a while. I lost 5 lbs in 6 days, and i think i stand to get down to where I was when i started working outside the home part time---that is where i lost my momentum...when I started my job at the gym,and then added many other industrial part-time other good things at intervals later. my weight gain is a combination of reasons, more then i yet know, as the blood work is still out.
At the time i began my first job outside the home, i had plateaued at thirty LBS less than when i started the gym. Istarted the gym because my heart was pounding at night, and during some hormonal phases, and also jsut feeling like of i did not do something i was going to have a heart attack. the year prior had been unbelievable and devastating. Medical tests begai to unravel many mysteries, and also show me that some things would never change. I decided i could join a gym. A friend took me. It took a month or two ,to decide, but when i did i never looked back.
I lost some pounds just working out regularly for the first time in my life, then after seeing a licensed ND that took me off most of my massive doses of supplements, another ten or thirteen came off in a week. My poor body was hanging onto any fat i ate just to store insoluble vitamins etc....(my opinion.) He also got me drinking water. before i saw him, I would fell washed out whenever oi tried to drink the RDA of water. He had me add electrolytes. They have served me well till now. Now I am off them as well. But I can drink the water and not pee out all the minerals, so it is okay.At the time i decided to work at the gym, I had been doing well,and controlling my diet, but my boss said too much, that i should eat more for a week or two, and then go back to my good diet----a cycle that i now teach as well! It worked, o lost five more in a short period of time, like toe weeks...but after that, I did too much...and had gained all but ten pounds of my heaviest weigh back! My blood pressure drops the heavier I am...my internist says he has never seen anything like it, and not to gain more. MY mirror tells me that i neither looked or felt marvelous...but I could not do the sensible diet... something was causing me as much as 7 lbs fluid retention...I felt so defeated, and also addicted to carbs to bury the pain,and just because, i have no toleration for carbs---says the gastroenterologist...and others.
So here i am, 12 lbs u(I was 30 lbs up form that basic need last week---now just 25--ten more lbs and i will get into a size that will greatly simplify my closet again!!!!) from the day i started my job, and 17lbs up from my "I am starting to feel good" weight. i think Under the care of this current Dr who specializes in adrenal insufficiency and fatigue, that the code to my metabolism will be cracked,and i will be able to not only get to the weight i was when I followed my boss's advice and pattern of metabolic recovery, but descend to a healthy weight below that yet and even better for my frame and over-all well being, not to mention, my closet and my mirror, and how it makes me feel to look into it. I fear I will get really saggy and wrinkly--but maybe by then I can do crunches, and really p[our it on in the strength training. Well, at least i will feel healthy and like i am a part of the world around me in a more functional and productive way. I will plan this time not to get so exited , and then over committed, and run myself into the ground...(I have abused all health i have ever gotten--getting so exited at the first little smidge---it felt so goo, and i would run and spend it--this time i will be careful until I am fully well. The Dr will help here. Wise council from a Titus 2 mentor also, and a loving husband who has been with me through it all, and loves me very much. I am grateful to God, so grateful! I am not well, but i have hope! Hope!
I am receiving help, and support. I am feeling the new feeling of satiety--it is a welcome feeling, a welcome relief. Due to carb addictions, and belly pains for allergenic foods, and perhaps habit, sometimes diets (same as now--only i would just get weaker till i felt like i was passing away---I don't think i have ever known satiety in my life. I can get through this. If my bloods come back clean of cancer or organ failure, I am sure that i can beat this. The other data collected from all the tests will also be a great help. And the spiritual growth in the fires, and the wisdom of years will be grace as well. And I think I have hope to be in the words of an author I love to read, be more fully human...yes, i stand to feel more fully alive! (Physically speaking, because spiritually I have been made alive, and have has awareness of that preservative aspect through the darkness. But of to apply that hope and joy with a body that might be able to handle it!
When I am on grains, I am immediately addicted. The addiction is inebriating, it takes the edge off all my emotions..and I thought i simply had self control. My ability to feel my emotions and physical pain has been heightened. I have developed an appreciation for these, and the desire never to be controlled by them, so to me it is like getting a useful tool back. it is not disappointing or frightening. I am observing my feelings. Emotions,in proper perspective, are helpful for understanding and communicating, and even some decision making.
Satiety helps one to feel settled. I know that I was getting to a strange place where I was losing my appetite altogether...and just like I was fading from life. Feeling fullness, and satiated seems to make foe better rhythm and tempo to each day. Though lack of sleep still causes me mild carb cravings. Today I have post-exertional exhaustion form singing, and lack of sleep, but I suspect the post exertional days will pass with less carb cravings, and i fell hope that post-exertional exhaustion days might someday fade out of my memory...
For fiber, I am taking medi-bulk, in my mediclear anti-inflammatory shake. I have at times added knox gelatin, though i am sure that agar-agar flakes are better and cleaner, as they are not form bovine. Perhaps I can find gelatin powder form a source where the bovines are grass-fed and not treated with hormones and chemicals etc... Today, a lady at the gym who manages type 2 diabetes strictly with diet and no meds, told me she takes a tablespoon of chia seeds with meals, and they gel up on her stomach with the food. I can see that, we have soaked chia seeds and spread them on the terra-cotta forms for fun here. I always wondered why they were sold at the health food store! The I thought of ground flax for my shakes too!
Then i got to thinking about flax...and that maybe, just maybe next month i can have some small pancakes made of a mixture of ground flax and teff, just some very small ones...but truthfully, I think I would rather stay in this safe place for a while. I lost 5 lbs in 6 days, and i think i stand to get down to where I was when i started working outside the home part time---that is where i lost my momentum...when I started my job at the gym,and then added many other industrial part-time other good things at intervals later. my weight gain is a combination of reasons, more then i yet know, as the blood work is still out.
At the time i began my first job outside the home, i had plateaued at thirty LBS less than when i started the gym. Istarted the gym because my heart was pounding at night, and during some hormonal phases, and also jsut feeling like of i did not do something i was going to have a heart attack. the year prior had been unbelievable and devastating. Medical tests begai to unravel many mysteries, and also show me that some things would never change. I decided i could join a gym. A friend took me. It took a month or two ,to decide, but when i did i never looked back.
I lost some pounds just working out regularly for the first time in my life, then after seeing a licensed ND that took me off most of my massive doses of supplements, another ten or thirteen came off in a week. My poor body was hanging onto any fat i ate just to store insoluble vitamins etc....(my opinion.) He also got me drinking water. before i saw him, I would fell washed out whenever oi tried to drink the RDA of water. He had me add electrolytes. They have served me well till now. Now I am off them as well. But I can drink the water and not pee out all the minerals, so it is okay.At the time i decided to work at the gym, I had been doing well,and controlling my diet, but my boss said too much, that i should eat more for a week or two, and then go back to my good diet----a cycle that i now teach as well! It worked, o lost five more in a short period of time, like toe weeks...but after that, I did too much...and had gained all but ten pounds of my heaviest weigh back! My blood pressure drops the heavier I am...my internist says he has never seen anything like it, and not to gain more. MY mirror tells me that i neither looked or felt marvelous...but I could not do the sensible diet... something was causing me as much as 7 lbs fluid retention...I felt so defeated, and also addicted to carbs to bury the pain,and just because, i have no toleration for carbs---says the gastroenterologist...and others.
So here i am, 12 lbs u(I was 30 lbs up form that basic need last week---now just 25--ten more lbs and i will get into a size that will greatly simplify my closet again!!!!) from the day i started my job, and 17lbs up from my "I am starting to feel good" weight. i think Under the care of this current Dr who specializes in adrenal insufficiency and fatigue, that the code to my metabolism will be cracked,and i will be able to not only get to the weight i was when I followed my boss's advice and pattern of metabolic recovery, but descend to a healthy weight below that yet and even better for my frame and over-all well being, not to mention, my closet and my mirror, and how it makes me feel to look into it. I fear I will get really saggy and wrinkly--but maybe by then I can do crunches, and really p[our it on in the strength training. Well, at least i will feel healthy and like i am a part of the world around me in a more functional and productive way. I will plan this time not to get so exited , and then over committed, and run myself into the ground...(I have abused all health i have ever gotten--getting so exited at the first little smidge---it felt so goo, and i would run and spend it--this time i will be careful until I am fully well. The Dr will help here. Wise council from a Titus 2 mentor also, and a loving husband who has been with me through it all, and loves me very much. I am grateful to God, so grateful! I am not well, but i have hope! Hope!
I am receiving help, and support. I am feeling the new feeling of satiety--it is a welcome feeling, a welcome relief. Due to carb addictions, and belly pains for allergenic foods, and perhaps habit, sometimes diets (same as now--only i would just get weaker till i felt like i was passing away---I don't think i have ever known satiety in my life. I can get through this. If my bloods come back clean of cancer or organ failure, I am sure that i can beat this. The other data collected from all the tests will also be a great help. And the spiritual growth in the fires, and the wisdom of years will be grace as well. And I think I have hope to be in the words of an author I love to read, be more fully human...yes, i stand to feel more fully alive! (Physically speaking, because spiritually I have been made alive, and have has awareness of that preservative aspect through the darkness. But of to apply that hope and joy with a body that might be able to handle it!
Friday, March 16, 2012
Asparagus for Breakfast
Today began with a trip to farmers market and the grocery store. After working out at the gym...I was home by 7 form the first two stops.
I threw asparagus in an oiled glass baking dish, with salt and put it in the oven. I browned some home made loose turkey sausage patties in an oiled cast iron pan. The seasonings were rubbed sage,white pepper, Hungarian paprika, and salt. After both sides were browned, i went to the grocery store. When home we all ate the sausage and Asparagus. The kids, not the ones on the diet per/se, had rice Parmesan cheese on their Asparagus. For one child, i serves fruit sweetened corn flakes with rice milk. The other has 1/3 cup of certified gluten-free oats toasted lightly in a small cast iron pan in raw extra virgin coconut oil (the only oil we can have for now,)added home made almond butter , and a 1/4 tsp of vanilla extract.
After that--the dishes stacked on the sink...dishwasher still full but clean form last night...I made some kind of yeast risen gluten-free bread for the kids, so that they do not jump ship. At the grocery I bought a few more snack bags than usual, gluten-free pretzels, rice chips, and crackers...since after three pathetic days of me opening the fridge and pantry...and skulking away with a carrot have broken my carb addiction...and i can now look and not touch. My children are not deprived...only one is complaining...but that is because he is 14, and he not only complains about everything, he is hungry around the clock. he is well fed, and husky...and only doing what he saw/heard his big grown brothers do, when it was time for them to go do like the Three little pigs..and seek their own fortune. This child will have a retail job at this tine next year, and an apprenticeship as soon as the law permits...it is our way---the older ones are gainfully, happily and fruitfully employed. The Ballerina on the other hand---was eating so lightly, that this will be terrific for her...so we will all choose to be happy...or miserable...but no one is truly suffering.
I emptied the dishwasher---washed the non-dishwasher pile of dishes---and proceeded top begin working on this blog, then a snack and lunch. Tomorrow is ST Patrick's Day, and we already dug out two onto green foods with Asparagus for breakfast--and the ballerina will be gone all day on the real day...So, I made the Shamrock Shake i had planned. Ice cubes,vanilla rice milk, vanilla non-dairy ice cream, vanilla extract, and large bunch of mint leaves and a small bunch of spinach leaves...and a tsp of stevia...filled the blender...so i had to taste some---so it did not keep slipping over---perfect! Took it around...the color said asparagus mom--how could you...but the flavor knocked out that thought. I made half of the rest of the fresh mint leaves into tea for my patient---thanks to a reaction to both sulfur based and citric acid remedies for a small rash...his entire body turned spotty red and blotchy and swollen...and now his skin is all sloughing off...i sent him back to work today with a cask of icy mint tea. The neighbor across the street will get the rest of the leaves for her to have soem tea---she liked when we take some over form out garden in summer.
Our garden--the little gardeners are aching to get in the dirt. They have already planted onions, and with a week of unseasonably warm weather---the screen porch and outdoor spaces are spanking clean and good to go...I must remember that the same child that complained about the butter not being soft enough for the bread during lunch was the one that cleaned the porch so thoroughly...but no excuses---complaining is just wrong, and draining to be around. We keep a low threshold here for non-constructive critique.
Lunch was a broccoli cream soup with warm bread. (But cold butter ;P) I first saute'd diced onion to clear---and slightly carmelized in the bottom of an oiled soup pot, and threw on the lid. I washed topped the brocolli into florets of all sizes--no bigger than an inch.For the stumps, i cut off the woodiest dried end, and take my knife and pull off the outer skin form the bottom upward...not too particularly. I slice the stump into 1/4 in slabs---then hammer away at it with the hand chopper until it is finely diced...onto that bottom of the pot with that---stir and soften a bit, add salt and white pepper, then turn that down and prepare a roux. No flour or grains, so I took a can of white beans and threw them into the mini processor till smooth. I whisked the bean paste into the sauted onion and broccoli, then i pour in unflavored rice milk, util it is the right consistency and amount to add the broccoli--and it will be covered---not too liquid, not too creamy. Bring that to a boil, and back it off until i set the table. Mom and Dad were happy with the soup,and the kids could have crusty brown bread.
More dishes. more blogging, and a break to wipe down my downstairs pantry shelves and re-organize, and then scrub the kitchen floor and get a shower. All the veggies and meats are put away in either the fridge. My root vegetables and squash are on the cool screen porch. it is cooler today. My sister and great niece dropped by...my siblings make me laugh harder than anyone on earth, we should go on the road! I needed that.
I threw asparagus in an oiled glass baking dish, with salt and put it in the oven. I browned some home made loose turkey sausage patties in an oiled cast iron pan. The seasonings were rubbed sage,white pepper, Hungarian paprika, and salt. After both sides were browned, i went to the grocery store. When home we all ate the sausage and Asparagus. The kids, not the ones on the diet per/se, had rice Parmesan cheese on their Asparagus. For one child, i serves fruit sweetened corn flakes with rice milk. The other has 1/3 cup of certified gluten-free oats toasted lightly in a small cast iron pan in raw extra virgin coconut oil (the only oil we can have for now,)added home made almond butter , and a 1/4 tsp of vanilla extract.
After that--the dishes stacked on the sink...dishwasher still full but clean form last night...I made some kind of yeast risen gluten-free bread for the kids, so that they do not jump ship. At the grocery I bought a few more snack bags than usual, gluten-free pretzels, rice chips, and crackers...since after three pathetic days of me opening the fridge and pantry...and skulking away with a carrot have broken my carb addiction...and i can now look and not touch. My children are not deprived...only one is complaining...but that is because he is 14, and he not only complains about everything, he is hungry around the clock. he is well fed, and husky...and only doing what he saw/heard his big grown brothers do, when it was time for them to go do like the Three little pigs..and seek their own fortune. This child will have a retail job at this tine next year, and an apprenticeship as soon as the law permits...it is our way---the older ones are gainfully, happily and fruitfully employed. The Ballerina on the other hand---was eating so lightly, that this will be terrific for her...so we will all choose to be happy...or miserable...but no one is truly suffering.
I emptied the dishwasher---washed the non-dishwasher pile of dishes---and proceeded top begin working on this blog, then a snack and lunch. Tomorrow is ST Patrick's Day, and we already dug out two onto green foods with Asparagus for breakfast--and the ballerina will be gone all day on the real day...So, I made the Shamrock Shake i had planned. Ice cubes,vanilla rice milk, vanilla non-dairy ice cream, vanilla extract, and large bunch of mint leaves and a small bunch of spinach leaves...and a tsp of stevia...filled the blender...so i had to taste some---so it did not keep slipping over---perfect! Took it around...the color said asparagus mom--how could you...but the flavor knocked out that thought. I made half of the rest of the fresh mint leaves into tea for my patient---thanks to a reaction to both sulfur based and citric acid remedies for a small rash...his entire body turned spotty red and blotchy and swollen...and now his skin is all sloughing off...i sent him back to work today with a cask of icy mint tea. The neighbor across the street will get the rest of the leaves for her to have soem tea---she liked when we take some over form out garden in summer.
Our garden--the little gardeners are aching to get in the dirt. They have already planted onions, and with a week of unseasonably warm weather---the screen porch and outdoor spaces are spanking clean and good to go...I must remember that the same child that complained about the butter not being soft enough for the bread during lunch was the one that cleaned the porch so thoroughly...but no excuses---complaining is just wrong, and draining to be around. We keep a low threshold here for non-constructive critique.
Lunch was a broccoli cream soup with warm bread. (But cold butter ;P) I first saute'd diced onion to clear---and slightly carmelized in the bottom of an oiled soup pot, and threw on the lid. I washed topped the brocolli into florets of all sizes--no bigger than an inch.For the stumps, i cut off the woodiest dried end, and take my knife and pull off the outer skin form the bottom upward...not too particularly. I slice the stump into 1/4 in slabs---then hammer away at it with the hand chopper until it is finely diced...onto that bottom of the pot with that---stir and soften a bit, add salt and white pepper, then turn that down and prepare a roux. No flour or grains, so I took a can of white beans and threw them into the mini processor till smooth. I whisked the bean paste into the sauted onion and broccoli, then i pour in unflavored rice milk, util it is the right consistency and amount to add the broccoli--and it will be covered---not too liquid, not too creamy. Bring that to a boil, and back it off until i set the table. Mom and Dad were happy with the soup,and the kids could have crusty brown bread.
More dishes. more blogging, and a break to wipe down my downstairs pantry shelves and re-organize, and then scrub the kitchen floor and get a shower. All the veggies and meats are put away in either the fridge. My root vegetables and squash are on the cool screen porch. it is cooler today. My sister and great niece dropped by...my siblings make me laugh harder than anyone on earth, we should go on the road! I needed that.
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